I’ve spent the last week or
two feeling like a failure for mostly abandoning exercise. I have had zero
energy, so it has been really easy to talk myself out of getting on the
treadmill. On Friday I actually forced myself to get on it for 30 minutes, despite
how blehhhh I felt, but I ended up walking only 2.5 mph for most of the half
hour. I blamed it on being out of shape and not being consistent with exercise.
I’ve been counting calories and staying on track with my eating, but I just can’t
seem to get moving.
Friday night I went out with
my friend J and her girls. We ate at Lime Fresh Mexican Grill and then walked
around the mall for a while. I was miserable, and just wanted to sit down the
whole time. Looking back, we were only at the mall for around an hour, but I
was just deflated and void of energy. Saturday and Sunday, I literally sat
around the house and did nothing. I was annoyed with myself for being “lazy,”
but I felt awful. Walking to the bathroom or to another room of the house just
took energy I didn’t have.
My bleeding has been getting
steadily worse on the birth control, so I called the doctor and he said to stop
taking it. He said that if the Provera didn’t stop the bleeding, the BC wouldn’t
either. He told me I need to have a D&C, which is stressing me out since I
don’t have health insurance, and those probably definitely aren’t cheap. He
doesn’t think I have any other option, though. Everything I take to try and
stop bleeding just makes me bleed more heavily. Unfortunately, when I stopped
taking the BC, the bleeding got even heavier, and I have awful cramps every day
now.
So… I FINALLY got my blood
test results back from the lab on Monday. When I went to pick them up, my
doctor had two prescriptions waiting for me, and my lack of energy and crummy
feelings now make sense. My iron levels and blood count were extremely out of whack,
and I’m definitely very anemic. The scary thing is that when I had the blood
tests three weeks ago, the bleeding wasn’t anywhere near as bad as it is right
now. If they did the test now, I’m sure my iron and all those blood levels
would be even lower thanks to the last 3 weeks of hellishness. My vitamin D3
level was also very very low. No wonder I haven’t had any energy! I’m taking
prescription strength iron and D3 supplements, so I’m hoping that helps boost
my energy soon. Even with the iron, though, if I don’t stop bleeding, I’m going
to keep feeling bad. UGH.
I’m happy that I don’t have to
deal with the nausea from the BC any more, but my appetite is responding to the
hormone change. On BC, sweets just didn’t sound good to me, but now I think
about chocolate 23 ½ hours a day, at least. I’m proud of myself for staying on
track despite that insatiable desire for candy bars, cookies and brownies, but it’s
not easy. Pretzel M&Ms have been a life saver since a whole bag only has
150 calories, and satisfies the chocolate craving. For an hour or so, anyway.
;)
My weight loss has slowed to a crawl, and I'm blaming all the hormones I've been taking. I've only lost a pound a week for the last several weeks, but I guess that beats gaining. I am hopeful that figuring out why my body hates me, and fixing it, will help get my weight loss back on track. I am proud, though, to be officially down 30 pounds since January! I have a looooong way to go, but I'm happy with what I've done so far.
Hope you can get the bleeding figured out. Ask if the hospital has some type of financial assistance. I had some health issues a few years back that required me to be hospitalized and they wound up covering everything that my insurance did not cover (almost 6,000!).
ReplyDeleteRemember your health comes first! The weight loss will pick up again!